Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Mindless ramblings...

Sometimes, no matter how hard you try to suppress it ... it will slowly resurface. No matter how much you try to bury it with all the superficial earthly created materials and items... it will find its way back and knock on your front door. One might say,"time will heal" but that is just bullshit. It was engraved so deeply into you, there's nothing time can do to remove it. Even if time did heal, the scars it created still remains. You might try to shout or cry your heart out to ease your mind but it will not go away that easily. You could also try to shove it into a little box, lock it up and throw away the key; hoping one day that it will cease to haunt you. Somehow, someway... it will find a way to find that key and open that little box. When that time comes, it will make your heart ache even more. Bottling and keeping mum about it only aggravates the pain you feel when it resurfaces. What about sharing it with someone you trust? No... no one could ever understand the lost and agony it brought. No one will know what you went through... they might lend a sympathetic ear or give you hugs to encourage you... that's just how far they will go.

Why? Why did God do such things to create it? Did you create it? No... you can't be the one who created it. No... not you. God was the One who created it. You tried confronting it but always end up hurting yourself. Probably you should resign to fate... it is not something can remove or hide... it will always be a part of you; part of your life. Part of the burden you have to carry as you journey through the meaningless existence you have here. What should you do to minimize the sufferings associated with it? Pray for God's assistance? He created it in the first place. He was the one that handed such a cruel fate to you. Yes, one might say that mere mortals like you will never comprehend His will. You know you understand that but you can never accept it. It is a reminder for what God is capable of regardless of how pious or faithful one can be. It is also a reminder that life is a cruel and meaningless game for He can always add a wicked twist to your fate.

You seek a exit for all the agony; trying in vain to escape the pain. No matter what you do, it will always be a part of your body and soul. Till the day you return to dust, it will remain with you...

Monday, June 05, 2006

My old rig found a new life...

Ah... my old computer served me well throughout my initial years of University life. Though it was not the first computer that I fiddled with, this was computer that I had upgraded intensively. Save for the soundcard, processor, speakers and monitor, I have placed a great amount of money to replace everything else. It served me well for almost four years before I purchased my current computer system which also cost me a truckload of money one and half years ago. (That's where all my Government study loan goes to). My old rig was destined to be dismantled and sold off in parts. I have already sold off my old NEC 17" Flat screen CRT monitor and Altec Lansing Powercube ACS45.1 as I slowly searched for buyers for the CPU. Alas... fate extended a life to this computer when my dad decided to buy a Sony Bravia KLV-V40A10 40" LCD TV.

Hooking up the old rig to the new LCD TV was as easy as hooking up my 19" LCD Monitor to my current rig. It was just a matter of plug and play. Thank God my good o' Geforce 4 Ti4200 graphic card was able to display 1366 x 768 resolution effortlessly. Though this old baby is powered by a 1.33Ghz Athlon CPU, memory capacity of 512MB SDRAM and a meagre 20GB 7200RPM harddisk drive (the 160GB was ripped out and placed into my current rig), it is still capable to play whatever anime or TV serials I downloaded without breaking a sweat. I transferred the whole first season of Lost and a few anime's into my 80GB external harddisk and played the AVI files on the LCD using my old rig. Lost was ripped off from the HDTV in the U.S. of America and it was awesomely clear on the Sony Bravia. To my suprise, even conventional DVDs and our pay-TV Astro do not have such high resolution (Thanks to the lack of HDTV infrastructure in Malaysia, my dad purchased another RM1600 "scaler" device to boost the resolution of conventional DVDs and Astro to a respectable 1080i resolution. Else, the displayed output will be so crappy. Imagine playing a 320X240 resolution on a 1280X1024 resolution). Next, I tried a series of anime such as Hajime no Ippo and Beyond the Clouds. The former is just a normal rip that is easily available from any fansub sites and the latter is a super high resolution DVD-rip. Hajime no Ippo series has 640X480 resolution and due to the 4:3 ratio, the LCD TV couldn't project the output onto the whole screen. I have always used PowerDVD as my computer media player and I removed the option of keeping the aspect ratio. The projected video was longish and it took me a while to get use to. Hell, it still beats the crap out of watching Hajime no Ippo on my 19" LCD monitor! Again, the projected output was pretty good and has better image quality compared to Astro or non-high-definition-DVD (aka the DVD you find in Malaysia. Pirated/Original).

Pardon the poor picture quality, my N6630's 1.3MP camera doesn't produce good quality images. See my old rig on the left?'s going to be a permanent feature from now on.

Next, I watched Beyond the Clouds which I mentioned earlier, is a very-high-resolution AVI file. When I played the movie, I was totally blown away. Not only was it a 16:9 ratio movie, the fine details on the LCD TV was totally mind boggling. Watching the animation with such high details was like getting high and having an orgasm at the same time!!(Pardon the selection of words). For normal DVDs, even when boosted in resolution by the scaler, it still has huge pixel boxes all around the screen. Those who have Astro, whenever you watch scenes that has gradient colour changes eg. under the sea, you are also able to spot these large pixel boxes. To my utter amazement, there was none when I played Beyond the Clouds. Too bad I do not have a sufficiently good sound card that can be interfaced unto my dad's TEAC amplifier else I would be able to enjoy a superbly high quality video display as well as an awesome 5.1 Surround system (Erm...this is subject to the type of file used!).

Anyway, before anyone starts commenting that I am rich or what not, please bear in mind that it was my father who spent RM13000 on that TV. It wasn't me. I am just blogging about it because now I can enjoy my anime and TV serials on a much larger screen. It sure makes a tech-geek like me to squeal like a guy who just lost his virginity to a very experience whore (Erm...I don't agree to paying for sex or premarital sex though, it's just an analogy). I first thought it was unnecessary for my dad to get this TV but he bought it either way. Now I am going to be the one who utilizes it the most! Too bad I no longer have my 15m network cable else I would be able to browse the internet on a 40" LCD TV!!!! Muaaaaaaaaaahahahahaha! Must get cable...must get cable... *in a daze*