Tuesday, February 28, 2006

The end of the road?

I still remember when I was in Form 3 when I was preparing myself for Penilaian Menengah Rendah (PMR) (or bluntly interpreted as Lower Secondary Examinations) when one of my good friend's mum battled cancer. Back then, all I could do was to sympathize with him and gave him moral support. I could never understand how he felt throughout Form 3 and I will never possibly comprehend the agony he suffered when his mum passed away when the Government examinations was just around the corner... or so I thought...

I am at the most crucial point of my academic career in Multimedia University. This will be my last trimester in this university and I have to complete my Final Year Project (FYP) in order to graduate. I am already in my fourth week of the trimester and in less than six weeks, I have to submit my FYP. Midterms and assignment deadlines are looming nearer and it is this time, a huge emotional strain has befallen on my family and I.

At this very moment, my mum is warded in the Intensive Care Unit (ICU) of Damansara Specialist Centre. In my previous entry a couple of months back entitled Faith is a wonderful thing, I shared that my mum was afflicted with cancer and it has spread to her lungs and brains. Less than four months later, the cancer cells has spread to a point where the doctors have already told my family and I to make preparations for the worst as there is nothing much they can do. My mum is on permanent morphine drips in order to help her cope with the immense pain she is going through and she is on a respiratory machine to assist her to breathe. Even with so much drugs, she is still in agony and her laboured breathing, makes it even more unbearable for my family and myself. We do not know how long she has to live but according to the heart specialist who saw her chest scan she took when she was admitted to the ICU last evening, he conceded that my mother has less then three months to live and even that is being optimistic.

I did not post this entry to gain sympathy from any one of you who reads my blog. My family and I do not need or wish for any sympathies. All I ask of you, the readers, is to offer up a prayer for my mum so that God may grant her the strength to withstand the horrible agony she is in now. Do offer up a prayer or two for my family and I as we are really going through a very emotional period of our lives.

All my family and I can do now is to offer prayers for my mum and leave the rest to God. I hope that you understand the situation my family and I are in and we do not wish to be flooded with well wishes and visitations. We appreciate your good intentions but we only wish for privacy and your prayers. Thanks and God bless. :)

4 comments:

Joshua said...

don't worry man. we're praying for you.

Laydie~Bug said...
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Laydie~Bug said...

hey there,... don't worry, i'll be praying for you.

Christy said...

Hi Nick,
You have my prayers as well; take good care of yourself and there will be renewed hope during the Easter season :)
God bless you and your family!